Prison Place

I am a mother serving the sentence of 1-2 years. Though I am not behind bars I feel the coldness of them in my heart.

I am a mother serving the sentence of 1-2 years and though I have my freedom I am a prisoner,unable to give my love to my son.

I am a mother serving 1-2  years not going thru the demeaning treatment from the guards but demeaning myself for not being able to help my own son.

I am a mother serving 1-2 years there is no fence or razor wire and I am not shackled or cuffed but I feel the inability to go about life in the usual ways.

I am a mother serving 1-2 years and will count the days untill I can love again and wrap my arms around my son and have the freedom to smile and to tell my son how proud I am that he endured his time and how no matter what he does in llife I will always be there to love him. 

You said it all. I'm kind of in your shoes only difference is my husband is the one locked up. It's hard not having him home but I don't think I could deal with my child being locked up. They say theirs nothing stronger than a mothers love for her child and as you know how true that is. Don't get discouraged and be thankful we only have to be away from our loved one a short time. He'll be ok, after all he has a great mom to love him no matter what choices he makes,he'll always be Mama's baby boy. don't let him forget that and keep the letters and money to him, he'll be fine. As for you, as hard as it is out here we still have to be strong, so you can be healthy and happy when he does get home. You don't want him to worry about mama. Go to the park, get some fresh air and look up, you'll be suprized how much better you'll feel. Anyway try to have a good day the best you can, it will be over sooner than we think. Remember "That's What Friends Are For"     

I feel for you and your son.  While I havent been through your pain, I can only imagine how hard it is.  I am an inmate/family advocate and I work with families that are going through the same thing you are.  YOU ARE NOT ALONE.  Let me know if I can do anything.

In The Struggle,

Christy

A mothers Sentence.. wow that was great.  It truly is just as you said it is.  As a wife of an inmate I find myself fighting the battles he fights on the inside.  When he has a bad day or a bad experience I feel it too.  I just am not there to suffer with him side by side but I truly suffer with him.

There is nothing like watching the ones you loved be degraded, mistreated, abused, belittled and denied the simplest things in life.  I want to scream, I want to throw things, i want to fight.  This is a tough battle for us all.  However, someone has to stay cool.  So its me. 

My daughter went to county once, while she was pregnant, I left her there for 2 weeks (to learn a lesson about shop lifting).  It worked cuz now she is a wonderful mother of 2, she goes to college part time and has a great home and life.  Those were the worst two weeks of my life, but they taught her alot.  However, prison is different.  Now i am forced to sit and not be able to do anything for  my husband, but pray, keep close eyes and ears on the system and the unit that he is at.  Talk to other wives.  Share knowledge and gain knowledge. 

This is a rough road and I would never wish this journey on anyone, however if your on it, you can handle it.