First I want to thank you for all your kind words and support. I don't really have anything new to say regaurding the situation because I'm still waitting. But one thing I do want to say to all of you who still have loved ones in prison, Is to be strong and stay by their side. Don't make the mistake that I made cause one day you might regret it and not have that second chance to make it better......

I was 17 years old when I first meet my sons father, we now have a 14 year old son together. Since the first day we meet I knew I loved him. We were so happy together. I always knew he loved me but his life style and the drugs always led him in the wrong direction. During all that time he was always in and out of jail. This time when he went back to prison I wasn't there for him the way I used to be. I was angry, sad and tierd of being alone. I thought I was teaching him a lesson by not showing him my support. My family and friends would tell me to move on that he was not good enough for me, that I deserved better. Even though I loved him with all my heart I did try to move on but I could never get him out of my heart. I was never able to commit to another relationship because deep down inside I could never love anyone more than him and I always had hope that one day we would be back together again. I have so many regrets but the biggest of all is that I didn't show him how much I still loved him when I still had the chance.

Don't make the mistakes that I made and if your really love someone just stay strong and stand by their side. Don't listen to others people's advise, their intensions might be good but no one knows you like your heart, so forget about everything else and just follow what's in your heart. We only live once and life is worthless without the one you truly love.